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Characters and concept of Stargate Atlantis do not belong to me.

Atlantis AU Here

Essentials
My first Atlantis fic. She felt awful, and, in her opinion, looked pretty awful too.

So Much For Secrecy
Somebody's going to figure this out one day soon...

So Much Left To Learn
He’d never seen her like that. Ever. Not even when she was kicking herself for making a bad call.

Exception to The Rule
...You spent the past four hours hacking a tree down...? Christmas fic.

Exception to The Rule 2 (W/S)
The Weir/Sheppard ending to Exception to The Rule.

Someday
Because otherwise I might as well tell everyone to evacuate this minute and give up right now.

Unpredictable
Infuriating man! Just what was he trying to say?

The Shadows Fall
Blinking against the rain and raising her voice above the wind, she glared almost defiantly at him.

To Numb The Pain
"Yes..." Elizabeth nodded, "...and this complicates things.."

Foreign Ammunition
"You ever have one of those days?" she interrupted, "One where just everything goes wrong?" she finished her sentence with another viciously spat curse.

Aishiteru
He's about to learn the true meaning of the word... Follow up to Foreign Ammunition.

Fire Me Up
Well, I know where ‘somebody’ may have stashed some alcohol they managed to barter out of some allies on a recent trip…

Banish The Pain
So here she lay in the Infirmary of the SGC, absolutely exhausted after getting the shock of her lifetime. Follow up to 'To Numb The Pain'.

True Self
PG-15 Months ago she had decided that not even thinking about the situation was the better way to go; if she didn’t allow herself to think about it she couldn’t question it, him or herself.

Unguarded
She was different on Earth.

Capable of Understanding
Everybody heard the words she spoke, but none understood her reasoning.

Dont Stop
Now her disappearing acts were getting ridiculous. He was going to make her pay attention. And then some.

Quiet Riot
The day he didn't return through the 'Gate, she changed. PG-15
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Epilogue One
Epilogue Two

Blame
How did this happen?

Never Again
He raised an eyebrow, smirking back at her, knowing he’d won.

To Alethes
Hey, you know me, you’ll have to drag me away, kicking and screaming.

Game On
He’s never seen her like this before. She’s not quite drunk, so he thinks, but then again, neither is he, but she’s dropped her guard enough to let the child in her out, along with her wicked sense of humour.

Such Kids
"You like to swim?" John questioned, arms folded across his chest.

The Locket
"…I’ve never really worn it at all. I don’t even know why…

Crystal Clear
It was when they were taking a walk outside along the inner ring of the city that John was informed he really didn’t have as much privacy in his quarters as he believed.

Numb
Elizabeth blushed, feeling rather stupid, "…I can’t move."

Is That a Challenge?
Why are you licking a baseball?

Shackled
Do you believe in the past life?
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Epilogue

Paint It Black
I guess I didn’t expect this to change everything so completely...

Love and Honesty
I dont give a damn!

An Atlantis Summer
If they could just snatch days like these from time to time, she mused, it might just make everything worth while.

Concerning Conservatories
I just wanted to know what the hell I was supposed to do with this conservatory!

Leaves a Chill Instead
He died for her.

Losing Faith
Sometimes its just a front. Nobody can believe forever.

Heat
AU of the 'thermostat incident' mentioned in 'An Atlantis Summer'.

Uragiri
Its simple. It means 'betrayal'. His of her.

Point Taken
Twenty Two.

Naming The Future
"...I can't have children."

Points For Originality
Believe me, its hard to ‘feign’ innocence when you actually ‘are’. Whatever it is you’re going on about.

Grounded
Tag to 'Intruder'

Talent
You don’t want somebody trying to drag you into another profession and away from what you love.

Capture The Flag
It didn’t mean that he wasn’t going to have some fun with them first.

Next Step
She wasn’t quite sure why she had agreed to be the one who went forth and purchased recreational supplies for the Atlantis mission.

Tainted
She hated how he could make her so depressed, so angry she wanted to physically harm him. Not that she ever would, in her right mind, but then, was she really ever in her right mind around him anymore?

Light Left in These Eyes
Yes, you were the time of my life, for always and always.

Some Answers
I am going to fight you, Elizabeth. You must know that by now.

Alive
Its not just where we live, where our things are. Its home.

Eighty Eight Keys to Pain
If only she knew how to play her life like she plays her shame...

Dakishimeru
I wasn't born to the negotiation table.

Lead Me to the End
He was staying behind.

Dignity and Lace
He's never lost a poker game in his life.

Show Me Again
Knowing what I know, I would still have done it.

Polluted Water
People in this city are making bets as to when I'm going to be your next conquest.

Surrender, Release, Relinquish
She wonders if she’s being too cold and aloof sometimes. Not in the grand manner of pretending absolute indifference and feigning that nothing can hurt her, but for the simple reason that he’s told her that he loves her…and she can’t say it back.

The Second Hand Unwinds
She couldn’t help but feel she was punishing him by refusing to give in and let go.

The Right Side of Wrong
My being here and your being there doesn’t mean your views are necessarily worth more than mine!

Motherland
She doesn’t know how to explain it, but being back on Earth, for however brief a time, unnerves her somehow.

Shades of Ashes
From the outset she knew she was lying to herself.

Its Critical
Hey, don’t shoot the messenger, I was just relaying what was said.

Making Mischief
She decided he’d been having way too much fun for his own good recently.

Expressively Emotive
She really is a people person, and she’s good at her job, and somehow that makes him proud of her.

Aqua Aura
You dont want to fall into the ocean...

Letting It Sleep
He'd never actually made it his mission to see Elizabeth Weir in her pyjamas.

Decide on Your Heart
When its time.

This Year
Christmas shopping on Earth for 2005...even if they dont want to.

This Christmas Thing
Follow up to 'This Year'. Ronon has to endure moments of an Earth Christmas.

Like You Mean It
Tag to The Long Goodbye.

Played
Six hours? Really?

Hibernation
Seven Deadly Sins fic. Exploring other worlds, saying the wrong thing, having to run for their lives? Not today.

The Midnight Pudding
Seven Deadly Sins fic. Anyway, I don’t know how we’re going to explain ‘Doctor Weir got the munchies late one night’ as a reason for requesting more supplies.

Innocent Versus
Seven Deadly Sins fic. He’s not quite sure why he feels jealous of them. Of either of them, or why he feels like he has to measure up to them.

Friend Politics
He called me short. And a baby. And a girl!!

Serenity
Its almost light outside and most of the city is still fast asleep, but Elizabeth Weir is wide awake.

Into the Truth
Tag to 'Michael'.

Tetsujin
Seven Deadly Sins fic. They should never have started training together in the first place.

Before a Fall
Seven Deadly Sins fic. She wont back down.

Shine We Are
Seven Deadly Sins fic. Not impossible, just...improbable...

Fade
Elizabeth smiled slightly and ignored him.

Evading Apparitions
She hadn’t expected him to shut down so suddenly and so passive aggressively.

Never Stop Giving Up
Never again. He was never letting her out of his sight.

Just Like Heaven
She’s smiling and she’s happy, even relieved.

Saying Goodbye
Seriously, how can you be so calm?

Twist and Shatter
If it weren’t for the occasional twitch and the sudden cries, she might look a little relaxed.

Left Behind
I can't do this.

Edge
When she wakes that morning, something feels different. Follow up to Never Stop Giving Up.

Things You Didn't Want To Know.
That meant trouble. They only ever called her by her title at poker night when they wanted to know something they shouldn’t.

Impure
She had, at one time, thought that she and John Sheppard would be enemies.

Can't Even Imagine
Now its meaning is limitless.

So Serious
She has become a menace with a machine gun.

Hate, Hope and Faith
I hate him. And I hate you!

Quick Change
They had been back in the SGC for their yearly debriefing less than a week and already he had barely seen Elizabeth Weir.

Bitter Loop
She despised the term ‘friends with benefits’ but it seemed to be the routine they had fallen into.

Never Safe
Ronon. Now there’s a problem. She knows she should stop, they should stop, and she can’t make it happen.

Life Less Ordinary
He watches her. And she knows it. But she doesn’t look away.

Sweet Fire
She was out for revenge. Elizabeth Weir was not happy.

Context
They aren't real any longer.

Blur and Fade
It had been two long months since they had had a proper conversation, something not related to work.

Written in Blood
He could have asked her to end worlds at that moment she would have done it.

Jagged Echo
Nobody knows how close to the edge he is. He is capable through necessity.

Ice
A living death seemed so much worse than the actual end.

Quiet Triumph
For now, she is carefree and doesn’t give a damn who sees her behaving in such a wild fashion.

Audacity
They have never outright argued in front of their staff since the early days of the mission.

Suffocation
He shakes his head slightly and just wants to give up. It isn’t worth it.

Recklessly Driven
The choice he would like to make is not an option, for him, at least. He likes to believe he is a good person. He has to go.

Self Summoned Ghosts
Elizabeth Weir has been missing for fifteen years. I would say presumed dead, as I know that goes unspoken amongst the Atlantis staff.

Cold Gravity
Sometimes she loves it, sometimes she finds it upsettingly laughable. She is no more his than he is hers.

Heart in a Headlock
She had been adverse to John Sheppard’s way of doing things since her early days as leader of the Atlantis mission.

Heels
Perhaps it was just the thought that was supposed to do something. Just not what it was doing to him.

Implode
He will destroy her.

Raven
She hears a knock at the door and is only able to answer hoarsely.

Twisted Logic
John looks troubled. He won’t turn round and he wont glance over his shoulder, for that would mean altering others to his state of mind, but he knows he is being watched.

Wasn't Looking For a Romance Novel
She paused and stared at the shelf, before she slowly reached forward to snatch the book that began to move again. The book brought an arm with it.

To Higher Ground
He doesn’t know what keeps him awake at night. Why the moments in which he said no, twice, replay constantly.

Hate Without Frontiers
Atlantis taught her true hate. Blinding, crippling rage without any end.

No Charmed Life
She wants to go back and undo everything she has ever done.

The Eternal Struggle
He was amazed at the capability of the task of packing to turn perfectly reasonable people into crazed shadows of their former selves.

Would You Rather
John was clearly a master at the game. Who came up with questions like that right off the top of their head? Really?

For The Record
Relax, John, anyone would think you really wanted me to marry you.

Collapsing Codes
Words might try and make amends, but eyes will betray them.

Handprints on Our Hearts: Chapter One
It just wasn't that simple. Nothing was simple. Never anymore.
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8

Silver on Black : Truth on Lies
Her eyes linger on the letter J and she suddenly does not see the rest of the jumble of symbols beside it.

Lifeline
Elizabeth looked away as she gripped his hand tightly before he could pull away. She stared out at the city, silently.

Decompress
“Rodney, like you, is complaining about being in the Infirmary at all. Despite the fact that he passed out last time he escaped. Ronon’s just glaring at everyone. They know they’re safe – its not like he can walk anyway… Well…walk fast…”

Rewind
When she was fourteen, she deliberately failed a German exam to try and get out of her lessons.

The Dark Surrounds
You’re a coward. If it were you lying there, he would be right beside you.

Close Your Eyes
Part of you says you wish he had been dead. Then you wouldn’t have to explain yourself.

Shudder
Follow up to Close Your Eyes. You didn’t say a word. You didn’t scream, you didn’t curse and you didn’t cry. Shock, you were told.

Damned Serenity
She has turned dealing with these things into something resembling an art form.

Behind Closed Doors
The question of ‘did you just see all that?’ and response of ‘oh dear god’ played out across his face.

Lost Signals
The girl seems to be perfectly healthy, a normal girl approaching her teens. But she trips, she stumbles and she falls a little too often.

Blood Guilt
Some days he doesn’t even talk to her. She bears it gracefully and doesn’t beg for his attention, for him to acknowledge her presence and her voice.

A Unique Blend
She stumbled awkwardly to one side and toppled over completely.

Equilibrium: Part I
Equilibrium: Part II
Equilibrium: Part III
Equilibrium: Part IV
Equilibrium: Part V
Equilibrium: Part VI
Equilibrium: Part VII
Equilibrium: Part VIII
Equilibrium: Part IX

Assimilation
She can love him. She can’t love what he is. That’s too close. Much, much too close.

And They Lived
He looked as if he might break at that moment.

Saving the Soul
She haunted his dreams and yet his every waking moment at the same time.
Chapter 2

Insomniacs Anonymous
“It seems insomnia is a group activity now."

Imprint
If those rooms were never hers, then she lost nothing, right?

Skimming the Surface
"If I am honest…the relationships I have formed here are most likely the reason I do not miss my own people as much as I believe I should.”

Moths to a Flame
Somehow Rodney is missing a tooth, and Elizabeth thinks that was what he was wailing about in the ‘Gate room before he passed out.

Night Terrors
She hisses as cold fingers brush beneath her shirt, making her shiver, and nails dig into her hip.

Unpremeditated
Ronon is not a being she can control.

Keep in Mind
It doesn’t work like that. It can’t. Machines break. We’re just machines.

Dislocated
In those days they drank to forget. Now it seems they drink to remember. Stories flow more freely after a few drinks.

Catch 22
She finds it isn’t the confusion or the pain that haunts her.

Incarceration
No. None of that. Not anymore.

Characterisation
Because I’m taking it very calmly and I’m not at all angered, distressed or downright appalled at what happened today, am I?

Phantasmagoria
He has lived a present and a future they will never know and cannot believe.

Embrace
Elizabeth likes to hug people.

Thrall
She hits the floor and the ground seems to shatter beneath her. It doesn’t matter. None of it matters anymore.

No Returns
She mischievously patted Ronon on the head, teasing him, though he was far too drunk and mellowed out to notice, leaning sprawled across the table.

Triple Helix
Elizabeth considered trying to play mother to her once. Just like Laura Cadman and Miko Kusanagi, and every other woman in the city who couldn’t bear to think of the poor little girl growing up without a mother.

Surviving the Atlantis Syndrome, I/VI
She remembers wondering if their pain and suffering was worth naming a mental ailment after or whether it was just a cruel joke.
All chapters contain spoilers for ALL of Seasons 1-3 and the spoilers/rumours for Season 4.
Surviving the Atlantis Syndrome, II/VI
Surviving the Atlantis Syndrome, III/VI
Surviving the Atlantis Syndrome, IV/VI
Surviving the Atlantis Syndrome, V/VI
Surviving the Atlantis Syndrome, VI/VI

Sleepless
The room was dark, filled only with natural light. Everything was in it’s proper place and showed nothing untoward, as far as Ronon and John could tell.

Cloud Cover
Follow-up to Phantasmagoria, six months later.

Fade Out
He’s standing there, smiling that ridiculously infuriating smile of his, and she can’t decide whether she wants to kiss him or kill him.

Sanctuary
Elizabeth finds herself smiling and assumes she must be happy.

Ghosts of Worlds Away
So John just sat with her, in silence, feeling rather useless and downright awful, but there all the same.

Exorcism
"Can we get this over with? I mean, you took your sweet time, in your own words, but I know how this is supposed to go and I know what it means."

Tinted Canvas
Teyla/Cadman. "I used to find being protected by the city…comforting. Now I realise I am no safer here than I was on Athos, or anywhere else."

Sweat and Tears
Sunday spoilers. Running always meant she was angry, bordering on furious, trying to tire herself out before she broke something (or someone).

Work the Loom
The first time he sees her, they are seconds from death.

New Territory, Old Ground
Rated R. John pauses, unnerved by the cold of deja vu that rushes through him. She’s confident and he’s agitated and somehow she has all the power even though she’s the one under attack.